it’s always the best story to tell

This whole time I’ve been praying with focus for my twins’ healing. When all along God has had His eyes on not only them but my heart’s healing as well. 😭 He has a way of making His name known. And it’s always the best story to tell. Even if I think I want things my way. He’s uprooting weeds & tilling the soil. Painful process after a painful season but I want to see & feel fruit so badly.

He is a good good Father. Even when I struggle with pride that says I think I know what’s best for my boys. Even when I struggle to trust that He loves them more than I could ever love them.

I was listening to a podcast that reminded me of how wrong I’ve been. Pain can do that. Bring distraction, blame, guilt. It can shed light on our nearsighted-ness.

I believe God’s heart is always for healing. But His timing is something I do not know. I pray it’s soon but even still, He is good.

And I thank God for a husband who reminds me - the fact we even have these boys is more than enough to be thankful for. Because gosh they are and we don’t deserve them. Who am I to get to have two babies at once! I’ll take anything that comes with the gift they are.